roar. well thanks to alexia, i feel super depressed now. :( i wish ijsn never accepted me through dsa. then now i'd be in ijtp, living my life HAPPILY. not that i am not happy now, i just dread the gym trainings. seeing the coaches faces are horrible. ppl in ijtp even look forward to attending their ccas. i want to be like them. i wana transfer school. i miss ijtp, i really really do. i miss everything about it. and why did teng even accept me? she now has too many ppl. shes the bloody freaking idiot who put me through this. now i am not even gona compete. why did she accept me?! WHY OH WHY. you know, i really wish i was still in p6. at the gym com. i wish i had never taken the form, ever. i wish i had listened to yinying, she told me about how nice ijtp was, and how she didnt regret not coming to sn. i wish i had just got the letter, the one saying i have a confirmed offer. i wish i never accepted the offer. i wana go back to ijtp. i'm sure i'll never regret that. i've studied there for 6 whole years, half my life. why the hell did i even consider changing school.sometimes, i really dont understand myself. in ijtp it feels good going to school. it feels like home, it really does. i dont like this new enviroment now. i want to transfer, badly. nowadays, i dont understand myself one bit. i think i've changed. i feel stupid, stupid enough to have chose sn as my sec sch. i really have no idea what i was thinking then. i feel like crap today. i really wana go backkkk. like seriously. i miss everyone there. i really really wonder why i came to sn. i just feel super down today yeah? i often feel like this though. sorry for making you read such a boring post about my stupid life.
roar. well thanks to alexia, i feel super depressed now. :( i wish ijsn never accepted me through dsa. then now i'd be in ijtp, living my life HAPPILY. not that i am not happy now, i just dread the gym trainings. seeing the coaches faces are horrible. ppl in ijtp even look forward to attending their ccas. i want to be like them. i wana transfer school. i miss ijtp, i really really do. i miss everything about it. and why did teng even accept me? she now has too many ppl. shes the bloody freaking idiot who put me through this. now i am not even gona compete. why did she accept me?! WHY OH WHY. you know, i really wish i was still in p6. at the gym com. i wish i had never taken the form, ever. i wish i had listened to yinying, she told me about how nice ijtp was, and how she didnt regret not coming to sn. i wish i had just got the letter, the one saying i have a confirmed offer. i wish i never accepted the offer. i wana go back to ijtp. i'm sure i'll never regret that. i've studied there for 6 whole years, half my life. why the hell did i even consider changing school.sometimes, i really dont understand myself. in ijtp it feels good going to school. it feels like home, it really does. i dont like this new enviroment now. i want to transfer, badly. nowadays, i dont understand myself one bit. i think i've changed. i feel stupid, stupid enough to have chose sn as my sec sch. i really have no idea what i was thinking then. i feel like crap today. i really wana go backkkk. like seriously. i miss everyone there. i really really wonder why i came to sn. i just feel super down today yeah? i often feel like this though. sorry for making you read such a boring post about my stupid life.
